Russell - The After

Sweet ecstasy has given way
to feelings of self doubt
As I watch her slumber
I cannot help but wonder

Is this right
Or is this wrong
She is human
I am not

Already what I feared has happened
In laying with her, I fear I love her
I cannot run from this truth
I cannot deny it's existence

I will hurt her
It's only a matter of When
Not If
Dear God, please let my prayers be answered

Already she is a poison in my veins
Burning, I'm in hell
Yet every second closer to paradise
God help me, I don't deserve her

What can I do
How can I fix this
Is it better to cause her brief pain now
To spare her deeper wounds

I cannot think
I can only pray in wordless desperation
Keep her close
Send her away
I must choose and choose today

Dear God I want her
Need her
Feel her
But oh God please save her
Take her far away
Hide her
Bind her
God in heaven don't let me find her

I have not loved like this before
I have not lived like this before
I will be selfish
And I will stay
I will be here when she wakes
And I pray that I will have the strength
To save us both from a Vampire's fate